Nadia

Well, I went to the barbecue.  It took a lot of talking myself into it and I almost backed out again and again and again even 5 minutes from the event.

It was not at all like I expected.  I never should have went.  I am glad I went only for the fact that if I had not, I would have had an ideal vision in my head of what it was.  It turned out to be a very very umm relaxed thing.  I am just not the type of person to relax while people I do not know pee onto a tree and things.  It is just not me.  I was uncomfortable for the right reasons.  I did not know anyone there for two hours, so I figured I gave it enough of a try and left.  Right while I was leaving, someone I knew was coming, but I had made my mind up by then.

It was way beyond my comfort zone, but I managed 2 hours which I feel is pretty good.  Unfortunately, I need work on my socializing comfort zone, not my JeffFoxworthyTalkedAboutThis comfort zone, but hey. . .baby steps.

On work days, I have breakfast and then force a dinner when I get home even though I am rarely hungry.  I usually have to be creative to get all of my calories in.  On my days off,  I am just the opposite.  I get so hungry and plan and plan and eat all my calories and then justify eating up to or past maintenance calories.  I guess I am just so busy at work and on my days off I just have time to think about food and it is right there.  Anyway, this weekend I was soooo hungry after I got my calories in and I thought and thought about having about 500 calories and argued for and against it with myself for 2 hours.  Finally, I went to bed and did not eat it.  It was so worth it in the morning when I found I had hit my mini goal!

I had set my mini goal for 154 because of BMI, but apparently I had calculated wrong and need to be 150 before no longer technically being “overweight”.  I can do four pounds.  Very exciting that I am that close.  Hey, it is just a term, but even when I look at the fat on my arms and legs and of course my belly and know that I am not considered overweight anymore, it will be even more motivation to firm up.