Goodbye, sweetheart
I had a long week and finally had a whole weekend off. I unfortunately was not looking forward to it because of the company I was expecting. So, I wake up and am going toward the coffee in a morning haze and I look over at my cat and she does not look so good. So I say her name and she does not move. So I grab her up and she is breathing but she feels like she is not there at all. A few hours later, she died in my arms. And it was so hard. So hard. I loved her so much. I barely have anyone in my life, but I have had her for eight years. Through different cities and countries, apartments and houses, boyfriends, marriage, divorce, jobs. . . I loved her so much and she was gone. And then my company was here and I had no time to just sit and cry but that is what I wanted to do. Just cry and cry and cry. Because of the company, I went to a festival on Saturday and I just hated it so much. I am terrified of fireworks and excused myself when they started and just ran and ran. At one point, I tripped on a rock or branch or something but somehow caught myself and just kept running until I was inside a building. I went into the stairway and sat under the stairs with my head in my knees to tune out the fireworks but then all I could think of was my cat and the tears just poured and poured. I feel like a piece of my heart was just ripped right out and it will never make it back. She had been sick for a long time, but this week she seemed to be getting a lot better. Her appetite was crazy good and she was playing with toys like a little kitten. It made it a lot harder because I thought she was better, but I guess it was nice that she had one last hoorah. 
I am so sorry to hear about your loss! Our pets become our family and I can very much so understand your pain! Time helps, but right now I know its hard! Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!
That’s just heartbreaking. It was so hard for me to even read this. I also have a cat who I feel like is the only thing I can always count on, I can’t imagine what I would do without her. Stay strong!
I am so sorry to hear about your cat. I have a four year old beagle so I could only imagine.
I am so sorry for your loss. I have a cat that has been with me through thick and thin. He is my child and my husband makes fun of me for it. I have had one really close call and after everything was said and done with the vet, I came home with a 3 legged cat. I have no idea what I would do without him. Hang in there and things will get easier.
Stay strong!
Oh god I am so sorry
I nearly cried reading this, I dont even know what to say but I am thinking of you x